life is never at equilibirum

"but this will never happen because

the world is never at equilibrium" Dr. Kenny Tan

and how true it is...
life has never been at equilibrum
but if life is at equilibrium, there wont be any excitement
but sometimes, at least for me, how i wish that
life was at equilibrium
that it may remain constant
that things will juz go well with no hurdles
or it'll juz be constantly happy
instead of fluctuating emotions

haihzzz....
how i wish things were juz achieve equilibrium
and stay there.... haihzz
i guess today's an emo day
everybody's very emo today....
(i know not every1 la jubs, but lets juz keep it that way)

haihzzzzzzzz
when will this ever cease
and when will this achieve equilibrium
i really dunno
its time to face my worst nightmare i guess

plz Lord, strenghten me
and plz help me make the right decision
shield us from all harm
and plz watch over us
and walk with us
in our darkest moments
amen

First day of uni sem 2, 2009

first day back in monash for 2nd sem year 2009
oh well. got to uni at 9.55am
woke up at 9.15am
hahahaha
not bad ah?

anyway when i got to the paid parking i was like....
oh crap, i forgot renew my seasonal pass
but, i still tried to see if it was working
hahaha
it wasnt la
so i pressed for the ticket
and parked at my normal spot if my class ends late
like say 5pm or 6pm?
cuz got shade from the sun
eventhough it was a pretty long walk to the bridge
i messaged saab, laura and amanda.
"6002 right?"
no reply from them.
6002 is the 4 digit u need to know
to get to anywhere in monash
1st digit indicates building number
2nd digit is floor
3rd and 4th digit is the room name
pretty organized actually

anyway, i not yet print my timetable so....
tembak la. entered 6002.
and...... correct class la.
u guys were hoping i entered wrg class right
lolzzz

anyway the lecture theatre was freaking full
it was a full house
and to top that off, there were ppl sitting on the floor
i was like..... oh? O.o
it was fluid dynamics anyway
n i saw the STWO on the other side. so i went out
and entered the other door. on my way to that door,
thank God i found a chair in the middle of nowhere...
so good la. lolz.....
good good, my lecturer not bad. i like
then he show us pass rate for that subject
the pass rate is less than 40%
i was like..... OHHHEEEMMMGEEEEEEE
die ah die ah
need to work my @rse off

then had break for 1 hr. and prepare myself for a
6 hr lecture marathon. yup. 6 HRS
no breaks in between
12-2pm,2-4pm and 4-6pm
my electromechanics lecturer not bad la
but he's gonna be a pain the @rse la.
sure one. and his vocab.....
hahaha... lets juz say its very "geng"
hahaha

2-4pm right..... my lecturer didnt come in
no notification also. we waited there like dungu till 3pm
devan and vinesh was playin "which is more disgusting" on
iphone and i played ancient empires on my phone.
oh well..... sian la the lecturer
apparently he very old and lazy one

hahahahahaha
anyway mechanics of materials was fine la
dr. venugopal is actually very good
and ya la.

monash free printing printers are up and running again
wheeeeeeee~~~~~
hahaha
free printing shall resume.
brandon printed ALOT
and when i saw ALOT, his stack was 5cm tall
i think he printing every single thing in the share drive =.=
and thats all for 1st day la
finally got interest back in engineering
and hopefully i do well this sem la
cant afford to fail anymore
its my chance at 2nd chance

and 2moro shall be a new day
and it'll be a great day ^^

For My Best Friend.......

this post is dedicated to my CLOSEST and BESTEST friend
that i've ever had

for when i hurt him,
lied to him,
stole from him,
and
destroyed him,

he still forgave me.
even after the sadness and sorrow that
i brought upon him
and put him through
and
after all the things that
i've done to him,

he found it in his heart to forgive me
and still able to call me a friend
and a brother.

to u my brother, i trully and sincerely salute you
for a friend like u i can never ever find again
and i thank God that u'r still my friend
and i pray that u'll find peace
and for a better future

u can ask me of anything
and if u need a helping hand,
rest assured that i'll be there,
no matter what

thanks for everything ^^

Harry Potter and the Half Blood Prince

well, to start it off, i bought this tickets a day before the movie. which was decent la.
got good seats and stuff. i read the book already. n me as a not really typical guy,
i do love romance stories ^^
anyway, Harry Potter and the Half Blood Prince aint tooooooooooooo bad though
some parts were done nicely and stuff.

especially the settings and camera angles, that did the trick to adding
a whole different mood into the harry potter movie series
but when u compare it to the book, well, lets juz say its not up to par.
or really it juz cannot be compared.

well, they made an ok choice in choosing the cast for Ginny,
i guess the producers didnt know Ginny was gonna be Harry's lover
and hence pushing her from being juz another actress into
one of the main actress. (i think they were guessing Hermione) hahaha
anyway, actress Bonnie Wright (Ginny) is oh well, okla~~~~~

anyway, back to the story, i mean,
graphics, superb
casting, superb
settings, superb
camera, superb
directing, superb
storyline and book adaptations........... errrrr............. u guess la

all in all. its an ok movie la. 2 hrs 30 mins run time. well, if u ask me
i rather prefer that they make a similiar replica of the book, not caring
bout the runtime. if they actually do that. i'll watch even if it means
10 hrs of run time. hey, i guess what all of us really want is a
perfect replica of the book to be on screen.
well, at least thats what i want la
anyway, all in all, okla~~~
hahahaha

Video Accomplish

WOOOOOOOOTTTT!!!!!!
i've finished the YA.TV video already ^^
and way sooner than expected.
dunno what drive me last night...
errrr......
more appropriately this morning to finish it up
i finished at 6.17am ^^

hehehehehehhee
anyway 1st tried using windows movie maker
and.......
er............
lets juz say the functions are uber limited

so i downloaded corel, ulead video studio and yes,
it all came back to me.
it was the video editing programme that i was trained with
so yeah. got all my skills back in an instant.
so i did the video.
then i realized that eventhough the background noise
made the movie a bit realistic, it was kinda too noisy
with the background music (BGM)
and all.

so i downloaded a video to mp3 converter
and audacity, as recommended, to solve the problem
so what i did was juz convert the video's audio
into an mp3
then open the mp3 in audacity
acquire the noise profile of the noise i wanna remove,
and remove that noise in the entire video
well, have to do this again and again for each individual videos la
then mute the audio in the video, and insert the edited
noise removed ones into the track
edit the timelines so it synchronizes smoothly
(and not have lip and voice lag. i hate that alot =.=")
and voila. no background noise ^^

only 1 problem to this. if i dun choose
the lowest rate at which the noise is remove,
the voices in the videos will be very pitchy
so i had to remove very minimal of background noise.
but as a result, the background noise
becomes more of a high frequency disruption
so can hear the background noise becomes a very annoying
high frequency distortion,
if i wanna retain the original voices and not change the pitch
(if not kelly and kelly gonna kill me when their voices
becomes chipmunks, and yes, i made the song "Solution"
into a chipmunk version while i was at it.
hahahahahaha)

but oh well, the BGM managed to mask most
of the noise disruption in the background la
so hopefully it turns out fine.
anyway i did 1 with original background noise
and 1 with filtered background noise
so i hope all of u enjoy the video ^^
and plz comment on it as this is my first video
for YA!teens

hehehe
if u wanna see the video, then plz do come
and join us for our
GTAK youth concurrent service
this sunday 19th July 2009
10.30am ~ 12.30pm

cya there ^^

lovely night

i picked up the phone....
shud i? or shud i not? if i do....
what would be the consequence?
i.....

hey, hi, er.... i didnt mean to.....
huh? oh nothing....
haha.... juz being random i guess?
haha....

i guess it wasnt so bad after all
we would have small talk...
i would ask u bout ur day, bout ur week,
and u would ask bout mine.

feelings sparks...
and thats how my heart would yearn for u
for every word u say, would brighten my day
and u would light up my life, even in the depths of night,
i would still feel ur warmth....
how i wish i could hold u close...

but even so.... u r so close... n yet so far.....
and i dream.... dreaming that it was not pretend.....
that i was with u...
that i could hold u in my arms....

and when the lovely night ends....
reality snaps back...
and i am lost once again....

Lights!!! Camera!!! ACTION!!!

okla.... technically we didnt have dedicated lighting,
nor do we have dedicated mics and stuff but hey,
we have the same thing they used to film
quarantine and cloverfield ^^

well, nuff said. kelly and kelly has done a great job once again
applause ppl~~~ they deserve it
oh oh, and not forgetting miss director
she deserves an applause for dedication. hey, this work's not easy at all u know
and.... i'm juz the cameraman ^^
oh well, i'm left to do with the editing
wah~~ so long i didnt do editing stuff le
the last time i did video editing was like.... ages ago
and i did a trailer ^^
hey, my trailer good ok. the instructor looked at mine and was like
u do one or its the original trailer???
i was like........ =.=""""""""""
hey, dun doubt my capabilities ok

okla.... basically i'm off to editing la.
lolz..... hopefully it turns out good.
its so fun to edit~~~~~
WHEEEE~~~~~~~~~~~~~~