Feelings.....

The feeling i have now is indescribable. I dunno why, but, i’m missing her. I’m missing her so badly, that to an extent,i’m tearing. How much can u miss someone, that, all u want to do, is run to her, and embrace her in your arms. Have you felt that way before?

Have you felt that the person you have feelings for,

the one that you think of last before u sleep,

the one that you want to share an ice cream with,

the one hand that you want to hold,

the one which means the world to you,

the one you wanna hold and never let go,

the one you wanna care for,

or the one that you want to love,

is someone you can never have.

As much as you want to, you know you cant. As much as your heart longs for her, you know that its impossible. Is love that strong, that it can break the strongest barrier of the human heart? And how much can a person bear this feelings before breaking down, with tears flowing, with hands clasp, and with the mind praying to God. Directions. Lord, what i need now is directions. I need something that i don’t have. Your strength. My life is in a vortex. An impregnable fortress have been built around my life. A fortress i could not escape. Chains, that i have bound myself with.....

the moments pass....

"errr.... hey, juz wanna say, all the best for ur performance
later. i wished u earlier, but i thought u could use the extra
encouragement. haha. anyway, thats all i wanna say to u.
dun wry bout anything. u can do it. God will be watching u.
haha. do us proud. haha. thats all la. take care ya.
have a great day ahead" and he looked at it one more time.
reading through it again to make sure it sounded natural.
he pressed continue. and then the name.
he looked at it again. are u sure u wanna do this? he thought.
if u hit yes, there's no turning back. and his finger thrust
forward, pressing the button. the screen displayed,
message sent. he stared at his phone. are u regretting this now?
he waited for a reply. 1 hr.... 2 hrs.... 3... 6... 12... 1day........
it didnt come....

a moments dream is a moments past.....
how can anyone comprehend the situation which is
so greatly endured by someone who is
of no strength to bear the burden?

sometimes, we do stupid things, things so stupid, u even look back,
think of thoughts unknown, and wonder....
what drove u to do the things u do?

u do know the consequences, u already know the end results...
still.....
u did it.

but...... why?
u already know what lies ahead, whats the outcome, yet....
u hope for the other,
u hope that things would turn out for the better,
u hope that what u've never dreamt of will come to pass.
and.... u do it again.