To My Beloved Millenium...

Today, at 7.25pm, was the last time i saw Millenium,
my cream coloured Spitz.
she was born on exactly 1st of January year 2000.
hence, the name Millenium.
eventhough it was a pretty long name,
but she responded to it no matter what.

she was my first dog.
and the cause of her death was mine to blame i guess.
if i would to play with her more often,
took her for more walks, then maybe,
this day wouldnt have come so soon.

She came into the family when she was 3 months old.
i was 11 at that time.
i was still staying at eng ann at that time.
she moved with us to Andalas.
when she was still a puppy, her favourite was milk and bread.
i remember sitting outside her cage with a few slices
of bread and a bowl of milk and feed her.
shes quite ganas la. and she loves to jump on people.
due to this, my parents wouldnt
allow her to run around freely.

since she was young she was always caged up.
and right now i feel very guilty for leaving her in
her cage for her entire life.
and i know how much a dog hates being chained up
and left in a cage.

i was a Jeff's cafe at that time with stephy when
my phone rang and a message from Kyleen read,
"ian, where are you? you better come home now.
the dog died"
for a split second i thought it was a joke.
i called her. and it was for real. she needn't tell me
which one. deep inside, i already know which.
and i hate myself for it. i rushed back. only to be able
to see it for another 5-10 min before my dad's employee
came and took it away to be buried at a land that my
family own. i wish i could follow and bury her myself.
she died of unknown reasons. maybe of old age and obese.
my maid noticed she had never moved since 12 this afternoon.
and she was only declared gone at around 6 plus.
but her body was still warm when i got back.

even though she was a family dog,
i always felt she was mine. i bath her, i play with her
i take her out of her cage, i took her for walks.
i always felt it was unfair cuz it was always me who was
responsible for the dog. and when my sisters as well
wanted her. and in the end it was me that bath her and
took care of her. but now,
i wish i could have done better for her.
i wish i could have took better care of her.

and i kick myself over for not taking her for walks more often
or spending more time with her. u only appreciate something
when its gone. and by the time u realize it, its too late.

but this is reality, and as much as i didnt want her to go, she did.
and with this said, i'll miss you Millenium. and i'll never ever replace
you and Millenium will always be you. You'll be in my memories
forever.

and i'll end this post with a few pictures of her after she had gone.
and how she lived.


Goodbye Millenium, i'll miss you....

Ideazon Merc Stealth, are you afraid of the dark?

FINALLY!!!!!! My FIRST gaming keyboard!!!!!

Presenting, ladies and gentlemen, the Ideazon Merc Stealth!!!

Here are some shots of it.Just got it today. Saved and saved like crazy for this =.="
HAHAHA!!! ITS WORTH IT!!!!
fell in love with it at first sight. haha
have been searching for it high and low for it man,
couldnt even find it in Low Yat.
anyway cutting long story short,
manage to find one guy selling this in the lowyat forums.
hehehe

manage to get contact him and made arrangements
to purchase it ^^
had to deposit 50 bucks for it though.
he scare i run away
but i also scared he run away =.=

anyway, decided to trust in other forumers that purchased his
stuff before la n they say he genuine 1
so ok lo~~~~
honestly very good seller lo.
he made arrangements to meet me in lowyat
his COD (cash on delivery) supposedly at ampang only.
but he said he got stuff to do at lowyat so goody goody ^^

and finally, are you afraid of the dark?
hahahaha

a short description of it...
its huge =.= 536 x 201 x 27 mm (its half meter for crying out loud!!!)
its heavy - 2.7kg (heavier than my laptop)
its expensive =.=" very, very expensive
the good stuff ^^
3 different colour illumination, 3!!!
and can change the brightness level ^^

it has 34 dedicated gaming keys on the left and
it has rubberized movement keys
all the keys are very well positioned and very responsive. i like ^^
its also anti-ghosting ^^ means u can press many keys at once
without it interfering with each other
and that part is tilted 11 degrees angle to match natural hand wrist position
it claimed la. so far it applies for me though ^^

it has macros and all the keys on this board can be customized
and change to my liking ^^
hahahaha
i'm so lovin this keyboard man.

okla. i gtg pawn some noobs in WOW n dota with this.
muahahaha

signing out ^^

Dandelion's Promise

He sat down, overlooking the vast open fields beneath him.
Breeze blew by, gently, calm...

He looked around, a smile on his face. The dandelions were shimmering in the field, waving in the wind like a sheet of gold. The first time he met her, it was here. It was a scenery that had favour in his mind. It was a long time ago.


He remembered, she was standing by the oak tree with a tear stained face.
Before he realized it, he approached her. "Hey, are you ok?" he blurted out.
She looked at him and forced a smile. "No, its nothing. Its just that, this year,
nothing seems to be going right for me. I just feel very helpless".
And she continued on, and he listened. Every word, every sentence.
And that... was the beginning.

Before they knew it, they had been talking for two and a half hours.
She bade him goodbye and she stood up, ready to leave.
He got up and brush his pants. "Well, if theres anything you need, i'll be right here.
You know where to find me" and she smiled. "Thank you".

The next few weeks, they met up, taking naps under the sun,
cicada noises coming from the field. He woke from his memories.
He smiled, the cicada noises were still there.
He looked at the place where he took naps with her.
And sighed. After how many years, it still sounds good.

He walked towards the ledge. He bent and picked up an old piece of torn paper.
"Hey, are you sure this is gonna work?" she threw another paper plane.
"Folding up your dreams in a paper plane and sending it off?" she laughed.
He laughed. "Well, better than sitting around doing nothing right?
We can't wait for a meteor or something right?" They both threw their paper planes together and watched it soar into the vast skies.

He grinned. We were so young back then.

Then, she left... he threw the coin to decide his fate seriously,
but yet, he didn't know where to go. Life suddenly becomes empty.
A promise made when growing up together,
it was so clear to him that he believed in that promise since they made a pinky swear.
They said they would venture together, and stay by each others sides.
But then, it was nowadays their only wilful persistence.

He sat down under the tree he first saw her. Tears rolled down his cheeks.
He remembered, they once were punished in the corridor of their school
and had their hands slapped. Yet, they grinned at each other when as
they paid attention to a dragonfly by the window during class.

Wherever he went, she would be following very closely. Those were the days,
they dreamt, and they had a lot of dreams waiting to be done, even till now.

He looked down at his finger. The finger that made the pinky swear.
The finger that ties him to a promise with her.
A promise that they'll stay together, and be by each other.
The promise made was so sincere, and that was the one time he couldn't stop talking about it.

"And now..... i couldn't tell the difference, if you were a friendship, or a love i missed out on"

(Base storyline from Jay Chou - Dandelion's Promise)