AHHHH!!!!!!!!!!

AHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy
so i'm gonna summarize a whole lot of things that i've done since
i last posted.

hold on.....
i cant even remember what i posted =.=

zzzz... equilibrium is so way back man.
today juz finished pressure meters and gauges

and.....
juz finished Brisingr today.... YIPPPPEEEE!!!!
cant wait for the 4th and final installation of the
Inheritance Cycle ^^

its one of the best book i ever read
well detailed, suspense is great
and action packed.
seriously recommend it

and.....
i've so far done 3 videos
which is the YA dot TV, pmr ee video promo and
mission promo ^^

and......
i've got engineering design warman project to finish

and.........
tons of reports and assignments....

and.......
sadly, my laptop's not ready T_T
taking too long la me
sianzzzzzz....

i'll update more next time la
bzbzbzbzbzbz

hate bzness =.=
oh well....

over and out ^^

life is never at equilibirum

"but this will never happen because

the world is never at equilibrium" Dr. Kenny Tan

and how true it is...
life has never been at equilibrum
but if life is at equilibrium, there wont be any excitement
but sometimes, at least for me, how i wish that
life was at equilibrium
that it may remain constant
that things will juz go well with no hurdles
or it'll juz be constantly happy
instead of fluctuating emotions

haihzzz....
how i wish things were juz achieve equilibrium
and stay there.... haihzz
i guess today's an emo day
everybody's very emo today....
(i know not every1 la jubs, but lets juz keep it that way)

haihzzzzzzzz
when will this ever cease
and when will this achieve equilibrium
i really dunno
its time to face my worst nightmare i guess

plz Lord, strenghten me
and plz help me make the right decision
shield us from all harm
and plz watch over us
and walk with us
in our darkest moments
amen

First day of uni sem 2, 2009

first day back in monash for 2nd sem year 2009
oh well. got to uni at 9.55am
woke up at 9.15am
hahahaha
not bad ah?

anyway when i got to the paid parking i was like....
oh crap, i forgot renew my seasonal pass
but, i still tried to see if it was working
hahaha
it wasnt la
so i pressed for the ticket
and parked at my normal spot if my class ends late
like say 5pm or 6pm?
cuz got shade from the sun
eventhough it was a pretty long walk to the bridge
i messaged saab, laura and amanda.
"6002 right?"
no reply from them.
6002 is the 4 digit u need to know
to get to anywhere in monash
1st digit indicates building number
2nd digit is floor
3rd and 4th digit is the room name
pretty organized actually

anyway, i not yet print my timetable so....
tembak la. entered 6002.
and...... correct class la.
u guys were hoping i entered wrg class right
lolzzz

anyway the lecture theatre was freaking full
it was a full house
and to top that off, there were ppl sitting on the floor
i was like..... oh? O.o
it was fluid dynamics anyway
n i saw the STWO on the other side. so i went out
and entered the other door. on my way to that door,
thank God i found a chair in the middle of nowhere...
so good la. lolz.....
good good, my lecturer not bad. i like
then he show us pass rate for that subject
the pass rate is less than 40%
i was like..... OHHHEEEMMMGEEEEEEE
die ah die ah
need to work my @rse off

then had break for 1 hr. and prepare myself for a
6 hr lecture marathon. yup. 6 HRS
no breaks in between
12-2pm,2-4pm and 4-6pm
my electromechanics lecturer not bad la
but he's gonna be a pain the @rse la.
sure one. and his vocab.....
hahaha... lets juz say its very "geng"
hahaha

2-4pm right..... my lecturer didnt come in
no notification also. we waited there like dungu till 3pm
devan and vinesh was playin "which is more disgusting" on
iphone and i played ancient empires on my phone.
oh well..... sian la the lecturer
apparently he very old and lazy one

hahahahahaha
anyway mechanics of materials was fine la
dr. venugopal is actually very good
and ya la.

monash free printing printers are up and running again
wheeeeeeee~~~~~
hahaha
free printing shall resume.
brandon printed ALOT
and when i saw ALOT, his stack was 5cm tall
i think he printing every single thing in the share drive =.=
and thats all for 1st day la
finally got interest back in engineering
and hopefully i do well this sem la
cant afford to fail anymore
its my chance at 2nd chance

and 2moro shall be a new day
and it'll be a great day ^^

For My Best Friend.......

this post is dedicated to my CLOSEST and BESTEST friend
that i've ever had

for when i hurt him,
lied to him,
stole from him,
and
destroyed him,

he still forgave me.
even after the sadness and sorrow that
i brought upon him
and put him through
and
after all the things that
i've done to him,

he found it in his heart to forgive me
and still able to call me a friend
and a brother.

to u my brother, i trully and sincerely salute you
for a friend like u i can never ever find again
and i thank God that u'r still my friend
and i pray that u'll find peace
and for a better future

u can ask me of anything
and if u need a helping hand,
rest assured that i'll be there,
no matter what

thanks for everything ^^

Harry Potter and the Half Blood Prince

well, to start it off, i bought this tickets a day before the movie. which was decent la.
got good seats and stuff. i read the book already. n me as a not really typical guy,
i do love romance stories ^^
anyway, Harry Potter and the Half Blood Prince aint tooooooooooooo bad though
some parts were done nicely and stuff.

especially the settings and camera angles, that did the trick to adding
a whole different mood into the harry potter movie series
but when u compare it to the book, well, lets juz say its not up to par.
or really it juz cannot be compared.

well, they made an ok choice in choosing the cast for Ginny,
i guess the producers didnt know Ginny was gonna be Harry's lover
and hence pushing her from being juz another actress into
one of the main actress. (i think they were guessing Hermione) hahaha
anyway, actress Bonnie Wright (Ginny) is oh well, okla~~~~~

anyway, back to the story, i mean,
graphics, superb
casting, superb
settings, superb
camera, superb
directing, superb
storyline and book adaptations........... errrrr............. u guess la

all in all. its an ok movie la. 2 hrs 30 mins run time. well, if u ask me
i rather prefer that they make a similiar replica of the book, not caring
bout the runtime. if they actually do that. i'll watch even if it means
10 hrs of run time. hey, i guess what all of us really want is a
perfect replica of the book to be on screen.
well, at least thats what i want la
anyway, all in all, okla~~~
hahahaha

Video Accomplish

WOOOOOOOOTTTT!!!!!!
i've finished the YA.TV video already ^^
and way sooner than expected.
dunno what drive me last night...
errrr......
more appropriately this morning to finish it up
i finished at 6.17am ^^

hehehehehehhee
anyway 1st tried using windows movie maker
and.......
er............
lets juz say the functions are uber limited

so i downloaded corel, ulead video studio and yes,
it all came back to me.
it was the video editing programme that i was trained with
so yeah. got all my skills back in an instant.
so i did the video.
then i realized that eventhough the background noise
made the movie a bit realistic, it was kinda too noisy
with the background music (BGM)
and all.

so i downloaded a video to mp3 converter
and audacity, as recommended, to solve the problem
so what i did was juz convert the video's audio
into an mp3
then open the mp3 in audacity
acquire the noise profile of the noise i wanna remove,
and remove that noise in the entire video
well, have to do this again and again for each individual videos la
then mute the audio in the video, and insert the edited
noise removed ones into the track
edit the timelines so it synchronizes smoothly
(and not have lip and voice lag. i hate that alot =.=")
and voila. no background noise ^^

only 1 problem to this. if i dun choose
the lowest rate at which the noise is remove,
the voices in the videos will be very pitchy
so i had to remove very minimal of background noise.
but as a result, the background noise
becomes more of a high frequency disruption
so can hear the background noise becomes a very annoying
high frequency distortion,
if i wanna retain the original voices and not change the pitch
(if not kelly and kelly gonna kill me when their voices
becomes chipmunks, and yes, i made the song "Solution"
into a chipmunk version while i was at it.
hahahahahaha)

but oh well, the BGM managed to mask most
of the noise disruption in the background la
so hopefully it turns out fine.
anyway i did 1 with original background noise
and 1 with filtered background noise
so i hope all of u enjoy the video ^^
and plz comment on it as this is my first video
for YA!teens

hehehe
if u wanna see the video, then plz do come
and join us for our
GTAK youth concurrent service
this sunday 19th July 2009
10.30am ~ 12.30pm

cya there ^^

lovely night

i picked up the phone....
shud i? or shud i not? if i do....
what would be the consequence?
i.....

hey, hi, er.... i didnt mean to.....
huh? oh nothing....
haha.... juz being random i guess?
haha....

i guess it wasnt so bad after all
we would have small talk...
i would ask u bout ur day, bout ur week,
and u would ask bout mine.

feelings sparks...
and thats how my heart would yearn for u
for every word u say, would brighten my day
and u would light up my life, even in the depths of night,
i would still feel ur warmth....
how i wish i could hold u close...

but even so.... u r so close... n yet so far.....
and i dream.... dreaming that it was not pretend.....
that i was with u...
that i could hold u in my arms....

and when the lovely night ends....
reality snaps back...
and i am lost once again....

Lights!!! Camera!!! ACTION!!!

okla.... technically we didnt have dedicated lighting,
nor do we have dedicated mics and stuff but hey,
we have the same thing they used to film
quarantine and cloverfield ^^

well, nuff said. kelly and kelly has done a great job once again
applause ppl~~~ they deserve it
oh oh, and not forgetting miss director
she deserves an applause for dedication. hey, this work's not easy at all u know
and.... i'm juz the cameraman ^^
oh well, i'm left to do with the editing
wah~~ so long i didnt do editing stuff le
the last time i did video editing was like.... ages ago
and i did a trailer ^^
hey, my trailer good ok. the instructor looked at mine and was like
u do one or its the original trailer???
i was like........ =.=""""""""""
hey, dun doubt my capabilities ok

okla.... basically i'm off to editing la.
lolz..... hopefully it turns out good.
its so fun to edit~~~~~
WHEEEE~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Phase 2: Disappointing 1st Coat Primer =.=

well..... as u guys know....
i was gonna spray my 1st primer coat 2day...
BUT....
my 1st coat of primer didnt come out nice T_T
crap la...............haihzz....
i thought if i cannot see the dust n if i cannot feel the dust
it'll be fine

how i know..
once i sprayed it on, the dust all buldged out
like freaking daisies~~~
ARGHHH~~~

great la... so yup.
have to sand it flat once again.
supposedly i'm suppose to wipe it with
denatured alchohol or use a tack cloth
to remove the dust n prevent the
surface from being statically charged
which is attracting all the dust particle.
i went to 2 hard ware shop n they dunno
what on earth is that =.="
gone case...
apparently i googled that denatured alcohol
is any alcohol not suitable for consumption
errr.....
apparently spirit methyl
could be used.
i'll try and see how la =.=
sianz laaaaaaa

n also how to do vinyls?!??!
any1 knows how to do vinyls??
i thought i could cut out using
a blade or scissors...
i was so wrong....

i think i got juz bad cutting skills la
eh wait...
i'm good with the saw....
hm......
oh well........
have to try again lo~~~~
see how things go.....

Finally got Starting: Project Laptop Cosmetics Surgery ^^

Finally, my project has begun, and its been a crazy day.

have u tried sanding for 4 and a half hrs?
no? u shud try then ^^

well, started by stripping my com.
so scared. unscrewing EVERYTHING for the FIRST TIME >.< this is the keyboard part there la. hahaha. stripped everything
wanted to remove the metal piece also.
but apparently cannot. so nvm lathe keyboard base panel stripped off. haha.....
can see motherboard and stuff la. ^^
for all u ppl who nvr seen the insides of a laptop before ^^
this is the keyboard. i'm thinking of changing the keyboard
to 1 with red led backlight ^^the keyboard base which is plastered and ready to be sanded.

all the covers plastered up. hehe. the back i use a pvc transparent
plastic to avoid dust and later paint to go inside. still got
components and wires inside that i cannot remove.
so have to protect la ^^

and after 4 and a half hrs of wet sanding.....

TADA~~~~~~
looks a bit scratchy but felt smooth like silk. superb.
started with 180 grit, then 320 grit, 400 grit
and finished off with 600 grit.
the keyboard base i didnt sand the paint off
too much details there i scared i spoil it.
so juz sand till smooth with 400 and 600 grit
only some parts i removed the paint ^^
will be starting with the primer 2moro ^^
hopefully this project will be a success la
hand very tired.
1st time i sand till so long....
hahahahaha

3 new rubiks which i've juz bought ^^

yup, my 65 bucks rubiks. enjoy ^^

anyway, here goes the rubiks pics.
(sry for bad quality. phone camera. and mines a walkman series, so yeah)
this i guees, looks fine. a pyramidal. aint look too bad la.
but i wanna collect this junk so yeah, juz bought it along ^^

4this looks pretty formidable though. i dunno how to describe.
it looks like a freaking ufo. theres only 6 rotational movements
and yea.... havent tried to solve it yet. haha
another pic of it standing upright.
i can get a headache juz looking at it

and for the most funkiest one i bought.
this pic is it while its still in a cube, solved.

looks ok? to me it did. not until i started turning it around
now.....
TRANSFORM!!!!!
yup. every piece has a different shape. but its still capable of turning
and hence makes it very very confusing.
seriously its the most funkiest looking one.

but oh well, guess what? i already solved it this morning ^^
hahahahahaha....
haha.... i used the same exact techniques for a 3by3
cuz by theory it is a 3by3 after all ^^.
time to crack my head for the other 2.
hahaha

finally my body feels functional... lolz....

YO!!!!!!!!!!!!!
finally i can feel my body...
phew....
slept last night at 6pm
HAHAHAHAHAHA
anyways, monday i overslept... hahahaa.... suppose to wake up at 6am
cuz goin to malacca. SUPPOSED to meet them at
laura's place at 8am then go dimsum..
guess what time i woke up?
9.30am ^^
i was like.... SHOOOOOOOOOT!!!!!
then i called laura.
i was rdy to not go at all but well oh well
since they're goin south,
they were still quite close to my hse
so they ask me hurry up n meet them
hahahahaha.

so, managed to make it to malacca.
the drive werent that bad. about 1 and a half to 2 hrs
well, sry but i got no pics.
camera's with stephy. hehehe

anyways, reached there, ate chicken rice.
hm.... didnt wanted to try the chicken rice ball at
the restaurant we were at cuz the rice ball looked like fish balls
jeremy didnt finish his. hahaha
then went shopping on jonker street...
i think i spent the most.
on what u ask???
when i reached malacca and juz parked my car
and winshean called.
he said belinda saw some funky looking rubiks at
jonker street. and guess what, i bought 3 ^^
i spent around 65 bucks there on rubiks.

the rubiks can be found on my next post.
anyway, nothing else much we did though.
went for some cendol at bukit cina.
and guess what???
the place we sat and ate was a freaking cemetry =.="
yes... i didnt know and i was stepping over all the graveyards
thinking it was juz boulders that was left lying around
until some1 said isnt those graves?

i was like.... aiks......
n i was happily stepping all over the place sommor.
haiyo.....
seriously, isnt it a bit rude to sell cendol in front of graves?
oh well....
then we went off to eye of msia or now known as
eye of malacca.
n guess what, i paid 8 bucks for air cond and..... air cond.
i was like.....
WHAT ON EARTH IS THERE TO SEE HERE??!?!??!
all we saw was mud around the ocean, and...
i dunno what else.

why did they moved it from titiwangsa anyway?
putting it in kl is a way better idea than
putting it in the middle of nowhere
the tallest building there was i think was the ferris wheel
haihzzz......

then we went to dataran pahlawan.
shopping mall, had some starbucks.
then saab was trying to convince laura to buy
a pair of shoes she liked, which he won.
lolz...
and wai ming was i dunno trying to scam
jubs to oblivion. hahaha
yup. then we had dinner in portuguese village.
when we arrived there,
we were literally swarmed with ppl trying to
promote their shop.
i think most of us were a bit taken aback by this.
seriously
they looked like they were gonna mob us or something
then when we pass by a bunch of kids playin gasing,
they were like,
he is white, he is black,
she is white, and he is white... HAHAHAHA
it was wai ming, saab, laura and me. haha
they were like so funny.
had dinner. not too bad.
only ordered 5 dishes but very huge portions
had leftover rice also.
then they crashed in my place.
played wii and ping pong.
then morning we went to moden for breakfast.
then i lead them back to kesas.

we shud have more of this road trips.

oh ya. then went to pyramid to meet the brothers.
came back up from penang for i dunno what.
lolz....

then slept at 6pm. hahahaha... yeah...
was worned out and beaten...
oh well. not too bad. lets go road tripping again ^^
WHEEEE~~~~

Its been a while......

yup, its been a while i've been MIA from my blog.... lolz.... sry~~~~~
juz been so caught up with so much stuff, n so lil time to do things...
haihzzzzzzz.... i'm so bad with my time managament.

finally some time for myself....
hah....
feels good....

anyway, SRY!!!!!
hahahahhaa
i know i havent been updating..
my bad ^^

errr.... not much has pass though...
but still, bz bz bz bz bz bz
oh well, will update everything by this week!!!!
WEEEE~~~~
my finger's gonna break
anyway, 2moro i'm going MALACCA~~~~
i dunno for what though
juz go along la i guess.

things i gonna update
-my brand new (WOOOOOT) comp >.<
-i didnt even update on my Olympus SW(shockproof waterproof cam) =.=
-i gonna spray my laptop... hehehe..... i'll log it here. will be done by this week
this will do to get things rolling la...
1 more week of holss~~~
so sad T_T
oh well....
anyway will update yea ^^
plz stay tune for the upcoming updates~~~~~
Ian out
*bzzzt*

To My Beloved Millenium...

Today, at 7.25pm, was the last time i saw Millenium,
my cream coloured Spitz.
she was born on exactly 1st of January year 2000.
hence, the name Millenium.
eventhough it was a pretty long name,
but she responded to it no matter what.

she was my first dog.
and the cause of her death was mine to blame i guess.
if i would to play with her more often,
took her for more walks, then maybe,
this day wouldnt have come so soon.

She came into the family when she was 3 months old.
i was 11 at that time.
i was still staying at eng ann at that time.
she moved with us to Andalas.
when she was still a puppy, her favourite was milk and bread.
i remember sitting outside her cage with a few slices
of bread and a bowl of milk and feed her.
shes quite ganas la. and she loves to jump on people.
due to this, my parents wouldnt
allow her to run around freely.

since she was young she was always caged up.
and right now i feel very guilty for leaving her in
her cage for her entire life.
and i know how much a dog hates being chained up
and left in a cage.

i was a Jeff's cafe at that time with stephy when
my phone rang and a message from Kyleen read,
"ian, where are you? you better come home now.
the dog died"
for a split second i thought it was a joke.
i called her. and it was for real. she needn't tell me
which one. deep inside, i already know which.
and i hate myself for it. i rushed back. only to be able
to see it for another 5-10 min before my dad's employee
came and took it away to be buried at a land that my
family own. i wish i could follow and bury her myself.
she died of unknown reasons. maybe of old age and obese.
my maid noticed she had never moved since 12 this afternoon.
and she was only declared gone at around 6 plus.
but her body was still warm when i got back.

even though she was a family dog,
i always felt she was mine. i bath her, i play with her
i take her out of her cage, i took her for walks.
i always felt it was unfair cuz it was always me who was
responsible for the dog. and when my sisters as well
wanted her. and in the end it was me that bath her and
took care of her. but now,
i wish i could have done better for her.
i wish i could have took better care of her.

and i kick myself over for not taking her for walks more often
or spending more time with her. u only appreciate something
when its gone. and by the time u realize it, its too late.

but this is reality, and as much as i didnt want her to go, she did.
and with this said, i'll miss you Millenium. and i'll never ever replace
you and Millenium will always be you. You'll be in my memories
forever.

and i'll end this post with a few pictures of her after she had gone.
and how she lived.


Goodbye Millenium, i'll miss you....

Ideazon Merc Stealth, are you afraid of the dark?

FINALLY!!!!!! My FIRST gaming keyboard!!!!!

Presenting, ladies and gentlemen, the Ideazon Merc Stealth!!!

Here are some shots of it.Just got it today. Saved and saved like crazy for this =.="
HAHAHA!!! ITS WORTH IT!!!!
fell in love with it at first sight. haha
have been searching for it high and low for it man,
couldnt even find it in Low Yat.
anyway cutting long story short,
manage to find one guy selling this in the lowyat forums.
hehehe

manage to get contact him and made arrangements
to purchase it ^^
had to deposit 50 bucks for it though.
he scare i run away
but i also scared he run away =.=

anyway, decided to trust in other forumers that purchased his
stuff before la n they say he genuine 1
so ok lo~~~~
honestly very good seller lo.
he made arrangements to meet me in lowyat
his COD (cash on delivery) supposedly at ampang only.
but he said he got stuff to do at lowyat so goody goody ^^

and finally, are you afraid of the dark?
hahahaha

a short description of it...
its huge =.= 536 x 201 x 27 mm (its half meter for crying out loud!!!)
its heavy - 2.7kg (heavier than my laptop)
its expensive =.=" very, very expensive
the good stuff ^^
3 different colour illumination, 3!!!
and can change the brightness level ^^

it has 34 dedicated gaming keys on the left and
it has rubberized movement keys
all the keys are very well positioned and very responsive. i like ^^
its also anti-ghosting ^^ means u can press many keys at once
without it interfering with each other
and that part is tilted 11 degrees angle to match natural hand wrist position
it claimed la. so far it applies for me though ^^

it has macros and all the keys on this board can be customized
and change to my liking ^^
hahahaha
i'm so lovin this keyboard man.

okla. i gtg pawn some noobs in WOW n dota with this.
muahahaha

signing out ^^

Dandelion's Promise

He sat down, overlooking the vast open fields beneath him.
Breeze blew by, gently, calm...

He looked around, a smile on his face. The dandelions were shimmering in the field, waving in the wind like a sheet of gold. The first time he met her, it was here. It was a scenery that had favour in his mind. It was a long time ago.


He remembered, she was standing by the oak tree with a tear stained face.
Before he realized it, he approached her. "Hey, are you ok?" he blurted out.
She looked at him and forced a smile. "No, its nothing. Its just that, this year,
nothing seems to be going right for me. I just feel very helpless".
And she continued on, and he listened. Every word, every sentence.
And that... was the beginning.

Before they knew it, they had been talking for two and a half hours.
She bade him goodbye and she stood up, ready to leave.
He got up and brush his pants. "Well, if theres anything you need, i'll be right here.
You know where to find me" and she smiled. "Thank you".

The next few weeks, they met up, taking naps under the sun,
cicada noises coming from the field. He woke from his memories.
He smiled, the cicada noises were still there.
He looked at the place where he took naps with her.
And sighed. After how many years, it still sounds good.

He walked towards the ledge. He bent and picked up an old piece of torn paper.
"Hey, are you sure this is gonna work?" she threw another paper plane.
"Folding up your dreams in a paper plane and sending it off?" she laughed.
He laughed. "Well, better than sitting around doing nothing right?
We can't wait for a meteor or something right?" They both threw their paper planes together and watched it soar into the vast skies.

He grinned. We were so young back then.

Then, she left... he threw the coin to decide his fate seriously,
but yet, he didn't know where to go. Life suddenly becomes empty.
A promise made when growing up together,
it was so clear to him that he believed in that promise since they made a pinky swear.
They said they would venture together, and stay by each others sides.
But then, it was nowadays their only wilful persistence.

He sat down under the tree he first saw her. Tears rolled down his cheeks.
He remembered, they once were punished in the corridor of their school
and had their hands slapped. Yet, they grinned at each other when as
they paid attention to a dragonfly by the window during class.

Wherever he went, she would be following very closely. Those were the days,
they dreamt, and they had a lot of dreams waiting to be done, even till now.

He looked down at his finger. The finger that made the pinky swear.
The finger that ties him to a promise with her.
A promise that they'll stay together, and be by each other.
The promise made was so sincere, and that was the one time he couldn't stop talking about it.

"And now..... i couldn't tell the difference, if you were a friendship, or a love i missed out on"

(Base storyline from Jay Chou - Dandelion's Promise)

Feelings.....

The feeling i have now is indescribable. I dunno why, but, i’m missing her. I’m missing her so badly, that to an extent,i’m tearing. How much can u miss someone, that, all u want to do, is run to her, and embrace her in your arms. Have you felt that way before?

Have you felt that the person you have feelings for,

the one that you think of last before u sleep,

the one that you want to share an ice cream with,

the one hand that you want to hold,

the one which means the world to you,

the one you wanna hold and never let go,

the one you wanna care for,

or the one that you want to love,

is someone you can never have.

As much as you want to, you know you cant. As much as your heart longs for her, you know that its impossible. Is love that strong, that it can break the strongest barrier of the human heart? And how much can a person bear this feelings before breaking down, with tears flowing, with hands clasp, and with the mind praying to God. Directions. Lord, what i need now is directions. I need something that i don’t have. Your strength. My life is in a vortex. An impregnable fortress have been built around my life. A fortress i could not escape. Chains, that i have bound myself with.....

the moments pass....

"errr.... hey, juz wanna say, all the best for ur performance
later. i wished u earlier, but i thought u could use the extra
encouragement. haha. anyway, thats all i wanna say to u.
dun wry bout anything. u can do it. God will be watching u.
haha. do us proud. haha. thats all la. take care ya.
have a great day ahead" and he looked at it one more time.
reading through it again to make sure it sounded natural.
he pressed continue. and then the name.
he looked at it again. are u sure u wanna do this? he thought.
if u hit yes, there's no turning back. and his finger thrust
forward, pressing the button. the screen displayed,
message sent. he stared at his phone. are u regretting this now?
he waited for a reply. 1 hr.... 2 hrs.... 3... 6... 12... 1day........
it didnt come....

a moments dream is a moments past.....
how can anyone comprehend the situation which is
so greatly endured by someone who is
of no strength to bear the burden?

sometimes, we do stupid things, things so stupid, u even look back,
think of thoughts unknown, and wonder....
what drove u to do the things u do?

u do know the consequences, u already know the end results...
still.....
u did it.

but...... why?
u already know what lies ahead, whats the outcome, yet....
u hope for the other,
u hope that things would turn out for the better,
u hope that what u've never dreamt of will come to pass.
and.... u do it again.

Plz rate this blog in terms of design, colour, theme, header n plz comment my wolf ^^

the title quite self explainatory i guess. plz rate ya. all views are really greatly appreciated^^
all comments plz proceed to the chatterbox corner yea ^^